can you feel it?

yeah, today was pretty fun. it was also just complete shit.

first the good part: I spent all day with my sister watching HP. lovely. I also worked on some hemp jewelry and had a good time. I ate waaaaay too much and still feel like shit sooo won't be doing that again.



the bad part: she hasn't talked to me at all. that might be because we got into a fight last night that was pretty bad. I was calm- totally pissed- but composed. I told her I wasn't going to give her anything anymore because she won't give me her time- reasonable right? I make her things, give her my full attention, treat her like royalty- and she blows me off. so its been decided that it won't happen again. I also told her not to talk to me... which might be why she isn't talking to me... who knows, it might just be some rebellion I'm unaware of. she does that a lot. I don't care too much. I mean, honestly I care a lot, but I don't want to, so I'm forcing myself to let it go. we will all float on. I just want to say IM DONE but I can't because I'm stupid. sooooo should I flush this friendship for sure or should I try to save it? I'm thinking I'm going to end it. she has other people, and, as hard as it is to think it, so do I. I have a lot of people. I just have to reach out, I know they'll pull me up. I love them all :)

its raining. thats not so scary, until you think that I'm in the high Rockies. it should be snowing.

lots of love.